Saturday, May 28th, 2005
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4:55 am - no longer gasping
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i feel like i can breath now... like a very heavy rock has been lifted off of my chest. thank you.
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Wednesday, May 25th, 2005
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1:56 am
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the worst filling is needing the one thing/person that makes you happy, but knowing you cant have it/them at the time being.
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Thursday, March 4th, 2004
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2:40 am
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current clothing: levi jeans and a black planes mistaken for stars shirt
current mood: bored and chill
current taste: chips and salsa
current hair: clean, short, black
current annoyance: being broke
current smell: my fart
current thing you ought to be doing: sleeping or talking to sara
current jewelry: i have these gold fronts
current book: requiem for a dream for like 2 months
current refreshment: pepsi
current worry: not getting any sleep
current crush: myself, i look hawtt in my new myspace pictures
current favorite celebrity: ummmmmmmmmmmm adam sandler
current longing: some cuddling
current music: indian summer
current wish: that i was broke
current lyric in your head: i dont know the lyrics to this song but its good
current makeup: ive got this killer eye shadow on
current undergarments: old navy boxers
current regret: that one time on the gray hound bus
current desktop picture: <img src="http://www.photo.net/photodb/image-display?photo_id=2065660&size=md>
current plans for tonight/weekend: work and seeing sara tomorrow
current cuss word du jour: fuck
current disappointment: you
current amusement: looking for this one photo on photo.net
current IM/person sara and ryan
current love: chips and salsa
current obsession: why are boobs fun?!?!?!
current avoidance: the mall
current thing or things on your wall: holes and dirt stains
current favorite book: black beauty it was amazing
current favorite movie: a christmas story
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2:32 am - office space
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i was off to day and did nothing at all but play video games... and it was everything i ever imagened!!!!!!!!!
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Thursday, February 12th, 2004
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1:42 am - the last few days have been good days, i didnt have to use my ak
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the past few days have been awesome. ive been working alot and kinda hating/enjoying it. im just glad im not gonna be broke after friday. i got to hang out with my dearest sara. i love this girl to death... shes such an awesome person. we watched movies and ate chips and salsa and got fat together. when i was taking her to work the next day, i got pulled over for going 75 in a 55. big lamer, i have a court date now.
the past few days after work i just came home and did nothing at all, and i enjoy every minute of it. i watched radio today, it was a great movie. it gave me that lump in the throat. i found out today that my dad is leaving for afganstan on sunday. a little short notice eh? i have to be responsible and shit now. oh well. i knew they were talking about him maybe going but i didnt think he would take the job. but he did and now he is gonna be gone for a year.
the big vday is coming up and im kinda scared. its gonna be the first one with a girlfriend. everyone wish me luck!!
PS jay dub i miss you. come hangout with me.
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Wednesday, February 4th, 2004
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12:46 pm - good days ahead
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so today is starting out to be a good day, i wake up to a missed phone call. it turns out to be olive garden, so i got my job back. im starting back again friday morning. im excited as hell to be working again. sara is coming up to hang out with me today too. im really glad i get to see her. i really like this girl. she is so beautiful and sweet. im so lucky to have someone like her. im also excited about this whole band thing. if any of you dont know me, kyle, lance, and richie (i believe) are starting a band. we are totally gonna rip your faces off come fall.
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Sunday, February 1st, 2004
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6:30 pm - saved by whos bell?
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its offical, we are going steady like zach and kelly.
current mood:  happy
current music: against me - nah nah nah
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Thursday, January 29th, 2004
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3:55 pm - its amazing how things just seem so right
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the past two days have been amazing. i went down to nashville tuesday to see superstitions of the sky and glasseater. there ended up being like 6 bands on the bill which sucked cause it took forever. but superstitions were amazing and im really glad i got to see them. i had alot of fun at the show so woot woot.
its crazy how news travels so fast through the scene. like almost everyone knows about me and sara already. we havent even liked each other more then a week. oh well im still super happy about it. me getting a very attarctive girl doesnt happen very often. its always wierd cause two weeks ago we didnt see each other more as a friend with the last thing in mind about each other was dating them, but things sure did change fast.
well i have no clue what im gonna do today... its already 4 and i still havent showered. i think brian wants to go down to nashville and shop or something. i might go but im not really in the mood to go down there cause ive been down there the past two days. maybe go hang out with abby and matt or something who knows. oh well im gonna go hop in the shower now.
DIG IT!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Tuesday, January 27th, 2004
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12:24 pm - i got da hook up holla if ya hear me
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isnt it crazy how you just connect with some people? ive met two people this month that i have connected with so well, ive only known them for a short time but they are way up there on my list of good friends. kyle is one of them, this guy is awesome. he is very easy to talk to for some reason and i dont open up to guys very well, but i didnt have a problem talk to him at all. then there is sara. she is freaking amazing and has one of the best personalties ever. the last week weve talked like everyday for hours on end. im so glad ive met these two people cause i feel im gonna have very good friendships with both of them.
ps i have a crush on one of them shhhhhhhhhhhh dont tell anyone
current mood:  bouncy
current music: johnny unstoppable
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Sunday, January 25th, 2004
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1:19 am - another one bites the dust
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leave it to me to have done it again. but im not worried about it at all. im gonna be content with things as they are now. things will fall into place when they are ready too, and with the right person. im also sick and tired of getting the same bull shit lines over and over. oh well fuck that. im done with them all.
the past two days have been tons of fun. i went down to nashville last night and hung out with sara, isobel, holly, dixie and alot of other kids. i ended up staying very late and dixie didnt want to bring me home. so i slept at saras house and stayed up all night talking with her. woke up at 11 and dixie brought me home. i chill here and shower up and meet up with kyle at walmart around 4 or 5. we chilled at abbys and i feel asleep around 11 and woke up and came home and ive been talking to kyle since.
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Sunday, January 18th, 2004
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4:27 am - a cry for help
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Thursday, January 15th, 2004
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2:47 am - "...to validate myself!!!!!!!!"
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i cant wait for this weekend to start. its gonna be so much fucking fun. i also hope to find out a few things that have been on my mind lately this weekend too. im going to turn my lazy ass around and be more fucking productive. get my job back and try and get into school. i dont wanna be like i am right now for the rest of my life. that would fucking suck.
"i dont need a crew!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
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Thursday, January 8th, 2004
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3:55 am
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i cant sleep. i have to many thoughts running around in my mind. mostly about the recent passing of my friend and a girl.
it didnt really hit me till i saw him. seeing his lifeless body lay there. i think the thing that hurts the most is knowing ill never be able to talk to him or hear him laugh. everyone took it very hard. his mother told us that he died a happy man(the first time she could remember him being truely happy.) he was getting ready to graduate from college, he was engaged, and he was loving life. he had so much going for him and all of its gone now.
i dont really know, i have a crush on her but im confused as to what to do. ive been confident up till now with it all. i dont know what it is. maybe its just that i have alot going on with my friend. i hope it is, cause this girl is awesome. hopefully everything turns out well in the end.
current mood:  confused
current music: off minor - monday morning quarterbacks
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Wednesday, January 7th, 2004
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1:38 am - ...go smoke a shotgun instead.
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its been another fun week. chillin with my niggas and my ladies. the rest of the tour went great. i kinda got tired of being cooped up in the van for hours on end though. i met so many new awesome people over the whole tour. i hope to meet more and more awesome people as i go on in life. i found a new past time too, tag and capture the flag. the last two nights of the tour were nothing but hours on end of playing capture the flag. i really hope we can all get together again and play some more.
i do have a sad note to all the great things that have been happening. a friend that i grew up with passed away on the 31st. he was an amazing kid, always looking to the better side of things. he always knew how to put a smile on someones face not matter how pissed off or sad they were. so to my late and recent friend, Bob A. Rivera. you will be missed.
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Thursday, January 1st, 2004
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5:51 pm - hmmmmmmmmmmmmm
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so yesterday was the 31st. it was fun. up until i got kicked and broke/dislocated my thumb. all the bands did really good. everyone is being a goober and chillin at some guys house we dont even know. we think he might be in town but we arent sure, i hope he isnt. well i think we are gonna leave in a few.
repsect!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Monday, December 29th, 2003
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11:13 pm - sometimes when you think enough is enough.
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this last week has been so amazing. i quit my job and went to a few shows. ive made so many new friends. im so happy right now, that nothing can get in my way. im going out for 5 more days with my friends on the road. so hopefully that turns out as well as the past few days have.
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Sunday, November 30th, 2003
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5:33 pm - for those who spent a lifetime waiting
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today was a pretty lame day. i didnt sleep at all last night so i could hopefully go to bed early for a change. im trying my dearest to not pass out right now. oh well. i have to work tomorrow morning again.
i hope i can get off work wensday night. so i can go see on broken wings, it should be alot of fun. if not ill just see them next month when they come back to town for the 3rd month in a row.
i hate christmas cause i always feel like a jerk for not getting anyone anything. i never have, i mean i hate going out and shopping for people not knowing what they like or what. im not a very big fan of being around family either. i mean all they do is pester me about stupid things. its really annoying. like the last time we did a big family thing when we went up to ohio for the wedding. everyone pestered me because i didnt drink. they really pissed me off by trying to pressure me to drink. i wanted to punch my dad in his fucking face.
all i wanted to do was to come back home and spend time with someone that was once speical to me. i got home and want not after everything and things were horrible. she as ignoring me and being a pain. i guess i deserved it though. i dont know why but it seems like a good enough answer. she been one of the hardest girls to get over. everytime im almost 100% over her something sparks up and some of the feelings come back. i mean i still wanna be her friend and want not, and she even said so too. but i dont see anything to that is striving towards a friendship. i dont know.
i think i just need to move. where to i dont know. i just need to get the hell out of here.
im done im getting to emo for this.
current mood:  crushed
current music: portrait
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Friday, October 24th, 2003
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3:32 am - ahhhh its crazy
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howdy, ive had this thing for like a year and have never post much on it. so thats what im gonna do today. post about bull shit. hell who knows i might make this into a weekly or even a daily thing, but i highly doubt that.
to start with the good things. im going to ohio this weekend to see my cousin get married. im also gonna be going to a few good shows this next month. im highly excited about them all. its been a while since be been to a show and im ready for them. ive also got a job that i dont hate more then anyone else hates their job. its an easy job when people are pulling their own weight. im just now finding out how great some of my friends are (even though im a complete dick to half of them.)
now on to the not so good things. mostly its about my girlfriend, things have been going great. up until the last week or two. we have just not be doing so hot. we have just been getting on each others nerves, and have been to stubborn to talk to each other about what we are doing that is annoying each other. i really dont want our relationship to end cause i really like the girl, but if it comes down to it. then i guess it has to happen. somethings just arent meant to be. but on other bad notes, my cars break are leaking and it will cost me almost 600 bucks to fix it cause i have this gay super special kinda of breaks you need special tools for. which is super lameo in my book.
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Saturday, January 11th, 2003
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12:03 am - a long time waiting
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wow its been some time since of done this stupid thing. oh well i think i might start trying to type in a more often that what i have since the summer. oh and happier things too. :)
im sitting here bored as crap at stpehanies house right now. i think abby is sleeping and daniel and stephanie are waiting a movie. mayb even holding hands. if not, they should be. i looks like she really has won the race this time.
work sucks and i want to quit. i cant though because i need the money and to keep my parents off my ass. i makes me feel really crappy, not ever being able to do stuff with my friends because i have to work and they dont. so i miss all the great times. woot complain, the only thing i am good at. as you can tell im starting to bum out.
IM DONE.
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Friday, September 13th, 2002
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4:20 pm
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i am a mix taper!
How indie are you? test by ridethefader
You're really enthusiastic about the music that you like. You attempt to discover your new favourite
band every week. You continually try to get your friends into the music you like, which annoys the fuck
out of them, but you don't know it. At least you're not arrogant about it.
wow that is so me.
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